Wednesday, July 15, 2009

this too shall pass

This too Shall Pass by India.Arie

I achieved so much in life
But I’m an amateur in love
My bank account is doing just fine
But my emotions are bankrupt

My body is nice and strong
But my heart is in a million pieces
When the sun is shining so am I
But when the night falls so do my tears

Sometimes the beatings so loud in my heart
That I can barely tell our voices apart
Sometimes the fear is so loud in my head
that I can barely hear what God says



Depression is a bitch. It's the long struggle that some of us face, the beast that can cripple you every bit as much as a physical handicap, that can sneak up and bite you in the ass right when you think you've finally got things under control.

It's like another entity that takes over your normal upbeat personality and replaces it with someone who cries all the time, doesn't want to get out of bed, doesn't want to work out anymore, doesn't reach out to friends, really doesn't do anything more than what is absolutely required of each day - the assignments that must be done, the bills that must get paid. There's the confusion of what is cause and what is effect. Is the struggle and strife of certain relationships and friendships and family situations caused by this or causing this? Do I leave and run away and say goodbye, or will that make the depression worse? "My head and my heart are at war" as India.Arie sings in this song that I love. I heard it at the gym on my mp3 player and it spoke exactly what I was feeling.


But then I hear a whisper that this too shall pass
I hear the angels whisper that this too shall pass
my ancestors whisper that this day will one day be the past
so I walk in faith that this too shall pass

The one that loved me the most
turned around and hurt me the worst
Been doing my best to move on
but the pain just keeps singing me songs

My head and my heart are at war
cause love ain't happening the way I want it
Feel like I'm about to break down
can't hear the light at the end of the tunnel
is when I pray for healing in my heart
to be put back together what is torn apart
and I pray for quiet in my head
that I can hear clearly what GOD says
but then I hear a whisper that this too shall pass
I hear the angels whisper that this too shall pass
my ancestors whisper that this day will one day be the past
so I walk in faith that this too shall pass

All of a sudden I realized
that it only hurts worst to fight it
So I embrace my shadow and hold on to the morning light

this too shall pass...

I hear the angels whisper that trouble don't have to last always
I hear the angels whisper even the day after tomorrow will one day be as today
I hear my angels whisper
I hear my angels whisper
this too shall pass


Oh child things will get easier
oh child things will get brighter
oh child things are gonna get easier
This too shall pass


I realized that this concert version does not have the full song...I don't like it as much as the hidden track version on the CD but it's all I can find online.

2 comments:

Janine (txmomx6) said...

Wendee ..... I, of course, love this post.
Janine

Anonymous said...

As no stranger to depression, the answer is, it's a vicious cycle! Painful situations spread the lead blanket over us, then we, immobilized, act in ways that reinforce it. I think the answer is to make some change in an area you can control, break the cycle...