Saturday, August 13, 2005

pearl in the oyster

I went to the beach this week with my kids, a last rendezvous before school starts. I had received a whollop of bad news on Wednesday morning, had to spend the day in meetings where I wasn't really mentally there, and then got to get away...

At the beach, my kids and I spun around and around and around with our arms outstretched in the surf until we were dizzy and I said that we were spinning all our cares away. I did cartwheels in the surf. Then we all laid down on our tummies and let the surf and the washed up sargassum seaweed wash over us. Sam had a blast looking for crabs and shrimp in the sargassum. He's such a little explorer. My brilliant 10-year old daughter astounded me by saying "Life is like an oyster. You have to get through all the yucky stuff and inside there is a little pearl." It brought tears to my eyes. I asked her where she heard that and she said it was inside her head. There is an Alanis song that says "Me, whose seen life as an oyster...". For my 10 year old to have this wisdom without anyone telling her, even if she heard the song and figured it out astounds me. Especially because she put it in a way that even I hadn't gotten the message from the song quite that way.

Lessons I learned recently:
(1) If it seems too good to be true, it is.
(2) Listen to your inner voice, but even better follow it. Listen to your inner voice above the part of you that wants to believe in love and the integrity of other people.

1 comment:

~Stormy said...

I'm so sorry for all the pain you have been going through. I was not aware, that all this had happen. But, there is one thing I would like to say to you. Love is true, it is out there. I thought for a long time that I would live the rest of my life alone. You are a beautiful! I'm not saying this to band-aid what has happened. But, truly you are beautiful inside and out. At a time in my life when life was very hard, you spoke words that would ring in my head for days at times. And are in my heart forever. Life is like a oyster. All the yucky things I went through, to get to this. And, you should know that some yucky days that I was so sure I would not make it through. It was you to pick me up and dust me off with your words. I love you so much, and hope only love and happy things for you in the year to come. After all the yuck, you above all others I know, deserve the pearl.

I don't just say these word, I feel much love in my heart for you