perfectionism

I'm starting to recognize that the perfectionism I live with daily in my life is an addiction I need to deal with, and it masks a deep insecurity and feelings of unworthiness and that I have to justify my existence and do everything "right." I have always hated Phariseeism - ie doing the outward motions of religion without having the heart - and thought it applied more to violent religious people or fundamentalists (LOL) and never thought it applied to me. But this one thing I read about perfectionism in my daily devotion book struck me - it's a different manifestation of the same phenomenon. Somehow I feel I must perform and do things "right" to be "ok". That was a deep one for me, and something I need to ponder more.